What I Want

I avoid coming here! I think it's because it feels a little like coming on stage where I have to perform in front of zillions of viewers. Why I can't think of this as just a place to chat and have fun? I don't know. All I know is, I feel pressure whenever I think about this 4-months-since-I-posted-last blog. I love to write, but somehow avoid the very place where I can do so. Well I have been writing, just not to you...sorry. You see I have been retired from selling my artwork for almost, hmmm...I can't even remember now but it's been a few years. Since retiring I feel so free, no obligations, no pressure, no stress and it feels so good. But this blog is a reminder of all the online pals and gals I've met and love and think about, but yet I avoid it (this blog) like the plague. So, are you interested in what I've been writing? No? (stop reading here)
Well if you're still reading, to start with I made a list. A list of things I want to do or be.
I want to start clippings of my favorite plants and make new baby flowers for my garden
I want to art journal every day
I want to knit and sew a new wardrobe for myself
I want to collect and restore and display antiques
I want an antique shop
I want a little shop on our property that's only open like 12-4 on Sunday afternoons where I can sell plants, antiques and art
I want to create my own art journal books
I want to illustrate my bff's poetry and make one of a kind books
I want to visit my best cyber-pal in person
I want to dance in worship
I want to sing a big choir again like when I sang at the Billy Graham Crusade many years ago
I want to build a bird and fish sanctuary with jungle vines and reflecting pools for meditation
I want to create a reading, knitting, meditation, (fill in the blank) garden
I want to make pillows for my garden house
I want other artists to visit here and be inspired and refreshed
I want to make dangly things from crooked driftwood with beads and sparkly things that glitter and twinkle in the sun
I want to make kitten cottage where they can run and play and jump without hurting anything or themselves
I want to live a quiet life.
Now see. I do have things to write about, but why I avoid writing them here I don't know. I think basically I hate technology. I've had a brand new cell phone for at least a month and have yet to even turn it on. But I've been knitting up a storm and have finished my first (learn how to knit a sweater) doll sweater class and started one for ME. My hubby has been in Mexico on a mission trip for a couple weeks so I've had lots of uninterrupted time to play with yarn. When I figure out how to upload pics from my new camera I'll post pictures. But again, that's more technology so don't hold your breath. Actually not totally uninterrupted time. I've had to do all of hubby's chores, feeding HIS chickens (which I asked him NOT to buy) collecting eggs, putting them out in the box for sale, collecting the daily newspaper which HE subscribed to even after I told him I don't WANT a daily paper (although they do make good fire starters) and yes bring in my own firewood and build and keep a fire all day and night cuz it's still cold here in the Pacific Northwest. At least I'm getting a little exercise and fresh air every day. Well it's late afternoon now and all my chores (and HIS chores) are done and it's time to sit and knit for a while. No telling when I'll be back here so have a great life and take time to enjoy the little things.