Turning over a new leaf

Well I did it, I finally did it. I've been paying for a website for 3 years beyond when I quit selling anything so I took the bull by the horns yesterday and QUIT. No more verlenebrooks.com. At least for now, or until I change my mind, which I don't plan on doing but it's out there in case I panic one day and realize what I've done. I've been talking about this to myself and others for 3 years so this isn't a spontaneous decision. It's something I've given a lot of thought to and besides when I first got a a website in 1994 we didn't have blogs and facebook and etsy and all these other options for making ourselves known on the world wide web. But now it's different. I don't need a site that I have to pay for every month. At first I was thrilled to have my name in "lights" verlenebrooks.com. That made me feel special. But I've grown up a lot in the last 15 years, not just in years but in confidence and independent thinking.It feels ok now to just be me, I don't have anything to prove anymore. I just want to have fun, make stuff, collect stuff and play art with my friends. Having my dh retired was a big factor too. It's hard to run a home business when someone wants to chat all day and run around town and visit and make phone calls and ask "what's for lunch?" Do I sound like I'm trying to justify my decision? Maybe I am, maybe I'm little afraid I will regret it and I'm trying to convince myself of all the reason why I did the right thing. Well whether I did or didn't, it's done and I'm free. No more deadlines, ever again, when it comes to making art.